Some Days are Easier Than Others

I've got the blues. The raw food blues. The cleansing reaction blues. And it feels so bad.

Just imagine a mournful tune to go along with that. Had such low energy Thursday evening and most of Friday. Felt like I did when I ate peanut butter sandwiches and french fries all day. Not sure what was up. My husband suggested I cut back on the fruit, after all I am a bit insulin resistant. That made me angry. How dare he suggest I give up something else! I liked my fruit, damn it! I grumbled all through the grocery store. Oh, yeah, one more symptom -- mood swings. Finally took a deep breath and got a grip. There I was in the midst of abundance -- banks of vegetables in every color, piles of peppers and greens and squashes, and roots and herbs. Things I'd never even tried before. Okay. Maybe he was right. I cut out the morning smoothie on Friday. By Saturday was feeling better. By Sunday a.m. I was walking 3 miles and watching the sun on the water. Spotted a small shark feeding just below the surface. Feeling good! Until around noon when the headache began and the nasuea. Even going to the beach in the afternoon and breathing that wonderful air didn't help. The headache got worse. Finally I went upstairs and did another enema. Relief! Yeah! So, I guess it was a cleansing reaction and I'll live. So how does that explain today? Decided I had to have hummus. Made some in my vitamix blender with a can of (cooked) chick peas, a small sweet hot pepper, chopped red onion, sea salt, lime and cilantro. Spread it on lettuce leaves and topped it with a avocado/tomato salsa. Wonderful! Ate all of it! But now I'm craving all kinds of cooked things. As I cooked dinner for my kids tonight (chili for taco salads) I wanted to eat one so badly! This, day 8, has been my most intense craving. I want to chuck it all and eat chili. Or toast. Or corn chips. Or some of the talapia my husband fried last night. Okay. This too shall pass. I'm not really hungry, having eaten more than a cup of hummus and half a head of green leaf lettuce, so I think I'll drink some water and distract myself. Some days are easier than others. Thank goodness tomorrow is coming.